My One and Only Gang :)

hanged out with my one and only gang , finally . Everyone was there except Futing who went Singapore earlier , HuiYi & Jonegen . So yeah , of cuz there was 8 of us . Wanted to watch 2012 but ended up in KBox for the whole day . Although it was kinda bored tho , but so yeah nothing's better than gathering and having fun with the people you love the most right :)

Let the pics talk ! :)

16th NOVEMBER , 2009

MONDAY

School was bored , but still what to do right ? Hueywen asked me to go parade after school dismiss on Sunday . So yeah , i thought she was joking and went to parade at the very last minute on that day , to watch 2012 :)

That day was real awesome !

Hueywen followed my car to parade , bumped to Cambry and Jimui - jonegen . And waited for the others to come

So yeah , i just got to know that , we're not allowed to wear our school uniform to Imax in Parade ==

Followed cambry to CC and so yeah Jonegen and hueywen were playing hide and seek and we lost them , fcuk

Went to sushi and so yeah got cheated by Foo Jonegen , the awesome actor in the whole world , acting like he'd lost the tickets for the movie

All of us were like wtf wtf wtf , don't try to cheat us plsplspls

and at last we cheated him back

Seriously , 2012 was awesome ! Must watch movie *

The effect and all :) I'm planning to watch again with my mates on next Monday

:P

anyone ?

PICHAS !

they said we look exactly the same ;p

LooiHueyWen , my twin sister :)

Black - HueyWen

White - Foo Jone-gen

girls are smarter than boys ;P

more pics will be upload soon , since everyone's complaining about the photos ;P

sorry sorry !

parade tmr , last chance with friends :(

anyone wanna join ?

Forgotten ?

Time passes , like so fast . Isn't it ? It was like , i just got my PMR test like one week ago ? Lol but it's actually already like , one month or something ? I'm like so pointless staying here , like everyone's forgotten who am I , or where i from since last week ? So yeah that's the reason I'm like so afraid of onlining and to see some contact lists in my MSN Messanger . It's like everyone's enjoying chatting along , having fun and i was like being left out ?

Sometimes i really like wished to close down my fb , blog and even like my MSN acc . And so yeah i could just , er .. throw my lap top away or just hide it inside my closet like forever . I'm really afraid of switching on the lap top and logging in to fb or whatever . It seems like i don't suppose to be there or something ? i sounded so stupid again . Sometimes people just seems like forgotten about me , i think ? I couldn't really like be that happy anymore sometimes , although I'm like trying to . People seems like changed a lot , people can be like telling you something at this moment and at the next moment , they just telling you something different or whatever .

I just don't know who should i really trust sometimes . They're like lying , or I'm just being way too dumb to belive someone easily or other things . I just couldn't figure it out anymore seriously . I just don't want myself to like get hurt or be upset or just cry all the time . That's so dumb seriously , although i know i am dumb sometimes . Oh well , its like so whatever to me now . I don't really like wanted to care anything at all . It's like , making me being emotional or upset only . Why would i care ? IDK .

People really like , forgotten who you are easily , do they ?

Te quiero , japanese boy .

was so emo just now and now i'm fine , already . I'm crying so hard just now and after all , i'm smiling when i'm crying . Tears finally turn into laughter . It's complicated .

btw , i hope you don't mind hun although when i talked to you i was real upset and i almost made you got mad . i'm sorry k :/ finally everything's over ? I'm treasuring everything .

And today i'm officially missing you <3

i don't care where you from , what you were ,

as long as you love me right ? :)

Te quiero , Japanese boy .

♥

i write sins , not tragedies .

so yeah , i'm really pissed just now . Not only pissed actually , frustrated and being way too emo . Swear for like don't know how many times and then broke down . Alright , i just don't know why did i just er .. broke down ? Or whatever . I'm just feeling so emo . I got screwed by 2 people , in a sudden . You guys know who you guys are btw , they're not my parents . It happened so in a sudden and idk what really had happened . Like i'm so innocent or something ? I really need someone to explain about what all these craps happening .

Oh yeah that's totally upsetting . Feeling so miserable and emo for like already days ? Actually i don't really know what had happened tho , it's like the feelings of erm Deja Vu ? I hate these feelings , cuz whenever I'm having these feelings it means something bad gonna happened . Yeah , I'm having this feelings like since days ago and i couldn't describe what am I thinking about or just like what will happen soon . So well , this is more pathetic than usual . Physically , it sounded like , weird ? It's just some kind of my weird feelings and everyone's advising me not to think too much or something but to be honest , i sensed something - today is one of the example . I know things very fast , yet i've no idea why too . It's not like i really wanted to check on someone or something like i wanted to know about it but every time it seems like I just know the something , not in purpose but in a sudden ?

I really hate what I am , and what i were . Like since i was born ? Yeah i just hate my own life , honestly . People seems not to be true and life's so unfair . Got scolded without any reasons and later they came to apologize and saying sorry and all ? Oh well , typing out sorry and saying sorry is really a simple thing tho . Well , you don't even know how may people feels like or just how people will think about all this happening so call " incidents " . Selfishness would really kill someone and every words that you'd say will kill someone , not on the surface but inside their heart . I would really wanted to tell you that sometimes sorry seems to be nothing for me . All i wanted to see is like all actions and etc . Telling me how sorry you are and etc , useless to me btw . All i need is action , action you know . Stop all this crap shit and dramas . Grossing me .

And all this while you're there , " Pretended " to be the nice one , telling me how good are you and etc , showing this and that like proving something else ? Pfft , it's like nothing can change what i'm thinking about you tho . When i said you're this kind of person , forever you're this kind of person in my mind . To be honest , i really hoped that all this shits never happened before ? Hmm well , maybe . I'm just like , having a lil attitude probs ? Alright , I've attitude probs . That's obvious . I'm not those kind of kids that fully grown-up by my parents tho . Before i enter my primary school i was stucked in maids' and grandma's hands . Way too pampered by everyone around me cuz i just wanted to get what i wanted and they're avoiding me to be like throwing things here and there , crying out loudly in public and doing things stupid just becuz they don't give me what i wanted . That's me .

Was really wondering what my life may seems to be without J tho . Yeah , i'm thinking now seriously . All this craps happened when he's not around now . How i wished he's now beside me and giving me advices and etc . Was crying like so pathetic just now . Oh yeah , i feel like I'm so ... Pathetic but I don't need anyone to feel sympathatic for me . So yeah now , everything's getting worse and worse . I am trying to find a way to solve everything right now although i know nothing's gonna work out at this moment . I'm trying to figure out what could help to solve these craps now .

I'm now desperately for a warm big hug and a shoulder to cry for . All i know that everything's getting worse and my eyes are arching like Ohmygod . Wishing something could change and something pls stay still . But obviously , what i wanted will be opposite like how i wished for . At last i'm feeling much better after typing everything out for like one and a half hour and I'm glad that I'm feeling better than usual . I'm honestly gonna say that I'm tired of all people around me and all these things happening . Not only tired , yet disappointed . People changed facts and people created stories . People said what they wanted all the time but they'll never know how it will effect the people who're listening to them . They're pathetic btw .

To all the people whom trying to listen to me and had been good advisors of mine , real big thank you for you guys . And i'm not dead yet , I'm just hiding in my room and crying whole night .

ps : i miss you , like words can't describe how i'm feeling now . I'm still officially missing you .

FYI , Sometimes i wish that i'd never born before so that i could stop myself from suffering .

ends with tears , 0131 .

Nothing else i can say .

oh well since like urmmh , well get over it .

you knw who is it lol !

for you , sorry and thanks btw :

Boy, we've had a real' good time
And I wish you the best on your way
I didn't mean to hurt you
I never thought we'd fall out of place

I have something that i love long - long
But my friends keeping telling me that something's wrong
Then I met someone

And babe, there's nothing else I can say
There's nothing else I can say
I wish you'd never looked at me that way
There's nothing else I can say

Not that I don't care about you
Just that things got so complicated
I met somebody cute and finally got each other and that's funny

eh eh , eh eh , eh

All I can say is eh eh

i know it's old enough . cut off all the eh cuz its annoying

whatever .

i wanna search you everywhere and say the word

lol . i'm just joking btw

the end !

in love ?

well , its like , the whole ipo knows about it -.-

people really has a big mouth ,

wondering how many food they can eat in a same time

and my phone can't stop ringing and fb's comments are like ppl spamming ?

asking this and that

stopstopstop

it's making me crazy act

the phone call finally made a smile on my face when i'm sleeping :)

still thinking of the Japanese - Chinese voices :)

* i'm officially missing you .

Paparazzi .

i'm not a celebrity but why everyone's acting like a paparazzi ?

pls respect what i've chosen and etc

checking me is really a lame stuff

fyi , i'm not singers like Lady Gaga or Britney Spears ,

i'm not a famous author like Stephenie Meyer who wrote Twilight Saga

or as rich as Bill Gates

i'm just me , myself

i don't need to care about what other people said about me

i don't even need to afraid of anything

i don't need paparazzi and etc

and so yeah SOME people's behaviors are really disgusting me

and the most disappointed part are , you guys are my friends

although you guys are my friends , or whatever

stop what you're doing now pls

you're disgracing yourself , so do me

you know who you guys are

stop your big mouth and go to do your own things

no offense *

somehow , i don't really care right ?

you guys knw my attitude well ,

as friends , probably a big yes too

that's all

real annoying .

screw it